So, I must admit….I’ve been in a funk all day today and yesterday! Not quite sure why, but I have been. I guess it’s because I’m SO used to being constantly busy 24/7. I’m usually either working, or doing school stuff, or at the gym. But, since classes don’t start for another couple of weeks I’ve just been having a lot of free time and I’m not quite sure what to do with myself. I’m almost ready to be back in class and back in a schedule. Actually…I KNOW I’m ready. I like to know what I’m doing and when. I’ve just always been that regimented person. Definitely not a go-with-the-flow kind of girl. I’ve also found myself missing my family a TON lately. I don’t ever get to see them and I miss seeing them on a regular basis. I hate living so far away from everyone.
On another note, my iPad came in today, which I was super surprised about. I checked on it yesterday and it was in Shanghai, China! Lol. Apparently, it traveled fast. Unfortunately, the case has not come in yet and I’m scared to death to hold it! Lol. Knowing me I’d drop it or something. But, I got it figured out earlier today and have been playing with it. It has an iBook app and I bought a book called ‘Working it Out’ that I’d been wanting to read. I got through about 30 pages of the book tonight and it is SO good. It’s about a christian woman named Abby Rike (it’s written by her). She lost her husband and two children in a car wreck a few years ago and gained a lot of weight and went on the biggest loser and lost it. It’s about her faith and what it took to get past all of that. Definitely a tear jerker, but very much worth reading.
So, if you didn’t notice, the name of my post is about change. I have yet to explain that. Well, I’ve already talked about how I’ve been in a sad mood the past couple of days. A lot of that has to do with all of my friends and family being so far away. I know things will be better when everyone moves back (on the 19th!), but as of right now things are boring and I have been in a pitiful mood…and I need to get over it. I’ve always been the kind of person where if I wanted to do something…I did it! No questions asked. I’ve definitely been lacking that “determined” characteristic lately and honestly that was probably always my favorite trait about myself. I’ve also never been one to admit my weaknesses. I want to try to do everything all by myself, but I’ve realized that I definitely need my friends and family as encouragement in every day life. SO, with that, I have several personal goals that I’ve set for myself:
-treat my body with respect (physically, spiritually, and emotionally)
-do good in school
-prove to myself that I can do things I didn’t think that I was capable of (half-marathon for example 🙂 )
…and the list could go on and on.
Starting now, I want to make sure I’ve committed to these personal goals. This whole blog started as a way that I could talk about the ways that I am going to better myself and that’s what I would like to keep it as 🙂