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Summer is almost over :(

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So, at first I thought I was super excited about summer being over and school starting back because that meant my friends would be back, etc. Well, in the past two days my world has basically turned upside down (and if you were to see my apartment right now, you’d know that I mean that literally). I decided to move back to campus and didn’t really think about the whole packing, moving, unpacking, blah, blah, etc, etc thing. My mind is so filled with so many things that I just want to sit in the middle of my half packed, half unpacked mess of an apartment and bawl my eyes out. I just keep telling myself that this move is worth it. To be with my friends, to be right near my classes, and if I need to get away I have my gym and other friends that live off campus. I just pray that I’m making the right decision bc I made it so abruptly. I’m that girl that needs to make a million to-do lists and needs to cross every little thing off of it. I’m a perfectionist. I want things done the right way and right then. This is just another lesson in patience that the Lord is teaching me I suppose. I just hate mess.I hate clutter. And honestly, I’m ready to do away with a lot of stuff. I wanna move the essentials into my room on campus and have a yard sale for the rest.
I realize this is a super long post, but I have a lot of things going on in this head of mine and feel better when I get it off my chest. If I’m being super honest, I wish I would have gone from my dorm last year back home to Selma. My parents are my best friends and I tell them everything that goes on in my life. And going home for the summer is kind of like getting my “fix” of being home I guess. Because now that everyone is back in Mobile, I feel like I should be getting ready to move back to Selma. I miss my parents. I miss being near family and being able to cry to my mom and let her hug me. I miss my daddy and his preaching and being able to sit in his lap (yes, I still do and always will sit in my daddy’s lap). I miss my church and honestly everything about home. It’s just hit me the past couple of weeks. I know there’s nothing I can do about this. I mean I’ve made a life for myself here in mobile. It’s where my job is, school, friends, etc. I guess if you couldn’t already tell i’m very homesick and just want to go back to February and never decide to transfer to south or move into my apartment (even though I’ve loved it), or stay here for the summer and just work. I’ve made a ton of stupid decisions that I regret, but I’m confident that the Lord will take care of me no matter what and that whatever happens will turn out to be okay.
Sorry for the depressing post, but I just needed to get things off of my mind before it explodes all over the place!