Well, it’s the night before move in and my car is jam packed with stuff. My stress level is slowing starting to come down, but I just know if I can make it through this weekend then I can make it through anything. packing and moving is not a fun process. However, I just keep reminding myself that this time tomorrow everything will be moved in! Sure, I’ll still have stuff in my apt I’ll have to help my parents move out next weekend, but as long as all my essentials are in one place I’ll be happy.
On to the next subject, a few of my friends are finally back on campus and I got to hang out with them tonight and just have fun. I haven’t had that in SO long. I forgot how much I missed them. I’m still praying about this move back to campus, and that it was the right decision, but I’m happy to be back with the people that I love and I know that this year is gonna be a blast.
Ok, I have to get some sleep. I have a BUSY day tomorrow!
So, at first I thought I was super excited about summer being over and school starting back because that meant my friends would be back, etc. Well, in the past two days my world has basically turned upside down (and if you were to see my apartment right now, you’d know that I mean that literally). I decided to move back to campus and didn’t really think about the whole packing, moving, unpacking, blah, blah, etc, etc thing. My mind is so filled with so many things that I just want to sit in the middle of my half packed, half unpacked mess of an apartment and bawl my eyes out. I just keep telling myself that this move is worth it. To be with my friends, to be right near my classes, and if I need to get away I have my gym and other friends that live off campus. I just pray that I’m making the right decision bc I made it so abruptly. I’m that girl that needs to make a million to-do lists and needs to cross every little thing off of it. I’m a perfectionist. I want things done the right way and right then. This is just another lesson in patience that the Lord is teaching me I suppose. I just hate mess.I hate clutter. And honestly, I’m ready to do away with a lot of stuff. I wanna move the essentials into my room on campus and have a yard sale for the rest.
I realize this is a super long post, but I have a lot of things going on in this head of mine and feel better when I get it off my chest. If I’m being super honest, I wish I would have gone from my dorm last year back home to Selma. My parents are my best friends and I tell them everything that goes on in my life. And going home for the summer is kind of like getting my “fix” of being home I guess. Because now that everyone is back in Mobile, I feel like I should be getting ready to move back to Selma. I miss my parents. I miss being near family and being able to cry to my mom and let her hug me. I miss my daddy and his preaching and being able to sit in his lap (yes, I still do and always will sit in my daddy’s lap). I miss my church and honestly everything about home. It’s just hit me the past couple of weeks. I know there’s nothing I can do about this. I mean I’ve made a life for myself here in mobile. It’s where my job is, school, friends, etc. I guess if you couldn’t already tell i’m very homesick and just want to go back to February and never decide to transfer to south or move into my apartment (even though I’ve loved it), or stay here for the summer and just work. I’ve made a ton of stupid decisions that I regret, but I’m confident that the Lord will take care of me no matter what and that whatever happens will turn out to be okay.
Sorry for the depressing post, but I just needed to get things off of my mind before it explodes all over the place!
I know I haven’t blogged in a while, but I really just haven’t had anything to say-crazy, I know. But, I am SOOO excited that a lot of my friends move back to Mobile today!!! The rest of them move in this weekend. I’m so glad to finally have them back! I wish I lived closer to campus…I’m in the process of trying to find somewhere closer to campus to live! Anyway, I’m about to go for a run and knock out some things on my to-do list so that I can meet them at the school when they get here! 🙂
So, I woke up and got a good run and some quiet time in and showered and was so excited about eating my breakfast protein cookie that I made last night. It was AWESOME! It has at least 20 grams of protein in it and should keep you satisfied for a while.
Cant you tell I was super excited about my morning run? 😉
Haha, I really was. It was just VERY early.
Time to get ready for work!! 🙂
Ok, so this is a breakfast cookie that I found on a blog and had to make it. It’s got lots of protein in it so I’m excited to eat it tomorrow 🙂
Add 1/3 cup oats and 1 tbs of nut butter of your choice…
Oats and nut butter of your choice ( i used peanut butter)
and 1/2 scoop protein powder
i used Jillian Michael's vanilla whey protein powder
Stir to combine and use the spoon to break up the nut butter until you have a nice crumbly mixture:
Add 1/8 cup milk of your choice (For me, lactose free fat free milk) and mix until fully moistened. Now the fun part- pick the mix-ins! I put raisins in mine 🙂 Stir in your mix-ins and season (I used cinnamon and stevia).
Plop the mixture onto an appetizer-sized plate and with the back of your spoon, flatten it into a round shape with equal thickness throughout…
Put the cookie in the fridge overnight. It will harden slightly from the nut butter and the oats will soften from the milk.
In the morning, take it out and enjoy 🙂
So, I’ve been wanting to do this for a while, but have officially decided to go all natural all the time(food wise). I read an article about organic vs processed foods and was completely convinced. Our bodies aren’t made to process the chemicals in the processed foods efficiently. So, I’m starting as of right now. Everything I buy won’t be completely organic b/c i AM still a college student on a budget here… 😉 Basically, my motto is If man made it, then don’t eat it! Now, I’ve just got to figure out what to do with all of the foods in my cabinet??
So, I must admit….I’ve been in a funk all day today and yesterday! Not quite sure why, but I have been. I guess it’s because I’m SO used to being constantly busy 24/7. I’m usually either working, or doing school stuff, or at the gym. But, since classes don’t start for another couple of weeks I’ve just been having a lot of free time and I’m not quite sure what to do with myself. I’m almost ready to be back in class and back in a schedule. Actually…I KNOW I’m ready. I like to know what I’m doing and when. I’ve just always been that regimented person. Definitely not a go-with-the-flow kind of girl. I’ve also found myself missing my family a TON lately. I don’t ever get to see them and I miss seeing them on a regular basis. I hate living so far away from everyone.
On another note, my iPad came in today, which I was super surprised about. I checked on it yesterday and it was in Shanghai, China! Lol. Apparently, it traveled fast. Unfortunately, the case has not come in yet and I’m scared to death to hold it! Lol. Knowing me I’d drop it or something. But, I got it figured out earlier today and have been playing with it. It has an iBook app and I bought a book called ‘Working it Out’ that I’d been wanting to read. I got through about 30 pages of the book tonight and it is SO good. It’s about a christian woman named Abby Rike (it’s written by her). She lost her husband and two children in a car wreck a few years ago and gained a lot of weight and went on the biggest loser and lost it. It’s about her faith and what it took to get past all of that. Definitely a tear jerker, but very much worth reading.
So, if you didn’t notice, the name of my post is about change. I have yet to explain that. Well, I’ve already talked about how I’ve been in a sad mood the past couple of days. A lot of that has to do with all of my friends and family being so far away. I know things will be better when everyone moves back (on the 19th!), but as of right now things are boring and I have been in a pitiful mood…and I need to get over it. I’ve always been the kind of person where if I wanted to do something…I did it! No questions asked. I’ve definitely been lacking that “determined” characteristic lately and honestly that was probably always my favorite trait about myself. I’ve also never been one to admit my weaknesses. I want to try to do everything all by myself, but I’ve realized that I definitely need my friends and family as encouragement in every day life. SO, with that, I have several personal goals that I’ve set for myself:
-treat my body with respect (physically, spiritually, and emotionally)
-do good in school
-prove to myself that I can do things I didn’t think that I was capable of (half-marathon for example 🙂 )
…and the list could go on and on.
Starting now, I want to make sure I’ve committed to these personal goals. This whole blog started as a way that I could talk about the ways that I am going to better myself and that’s what I would like to keep it as 🙂